Oh Sucky, sucky now...

My life has been yucky.

I have trouble at school, at home, all around me.

Now, I'm not the type of person to deal with conflict or trouble very well. I tend to at least try to avoid it. My mom says I'm a weakling. Eh, I kind of believe that. I'm a peacemaker, not a troublemaker. I don't like trouble. People talking about me, people gettin' in my face, people spreading lies about me. I don't like that! I mean, I'm cool with everyone. I mean, i give respect to everyone, even when i don't receive it. i don't hold on to what they say or whatever they case may be, and just think about what I did wrong or whatever! But it affects me when people start to threaten me or trying to ruin friendships or relationships I have with other people. I tend to have a positive affect on people. (no meaning to brag lol). But I have people who just latch on to me and see me as a positive influence or a good friend or someone they can help be better with themselves. Does this make sense? I hope so, cause I am just rambling.

Anyways, problems at school have been holding me back. The aura and the atmosphere is just all wrong and I can't work or be in a situation like that. If i feel it's not right, then it's not right. These people who are suppose to be helping me, aren't doing their jobs and it starting to really piss me off. I feel everyday, like wanting to snap someone's head off their body. Or cursing someone out. And that's not me. I'm usually chipper, nice, friendly. Nowadays, I got an attitude, I'm wanting to stay in the house and listen to jazz or sad music period. That's my rant.

-A.P.