So fucking STUPID.

I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up.

Man, was I in the clouds?

How can I take care of myself...in a dysfunctional household? I can't ignore that fact. I can't escape that.

How can one minute I'm happy, fine...
Next, mom comes home...with this man. A man who needs a MOTHER more than a WOMAN on his arm, doing his everyday duties, telling him what to do, etc.

Who understands?

I'm SOOOO happy @ school. I really am. Yeah, there are days when I don't want to be there, what's that point? But for the most part, I'm excellent, exceeding in academics and other things.

But...

When I come home, I fucking depressed, putting myself down, got other people putting myself down. Making me feel worthless.
Fucking tearing up my prized possessions (did i spell that right?)
WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO?!

I want to just rip my hair out and cry.

-A.P.