Not feeling like myself....

I'm defitnely not feeling like myself...I feel like a whole different person....

I don't know, but for the past 2 weeks I have been on the edge. I mean, I'm sad, irratable, just moody. And I just want to cry all the freaking' time! I mean, I'm just depressed. I've been having panic attacks, I feel numb all the time. I can't sleep (well I never really been able to sleep haha). though, before, I was doing good on staying happy and jolly for a good while. But now, I'm not sure what happen to me....

It's hard. I really, truly have no one to talk to. It seems that nobody wants to listen to me. Everyone's busy, busy. My family is unreliable. They don't care. If I'm helping them in a way first, then they care, for a bit. That hurts. In my family, we don't talk about feelings. Well, I'm the only one who wants too. There are too many family secrets and grudges towards one another that we can't even have a decent family gathering during the Holidays. That's sad. I hate that, I really do.

At school, my teacher is leaving on the 27th. I'm going to miss her. We already ahve a new teacher picked out. She's actually the "teacher" but she doesn't necessarily teach. Makes sense? She is EVIL!

My guy crush is distancing himself from me. We aren't friends like we used to be, since S started to use him against me. I can't talk to him like before. He is always with S.

The ONLY person I can really talk to is my BF, Danielle. She's awesome.
Well, nothing has been really happening.

Bye, I'm going to drown myself in sorrow :(

-A.P.

Youtube Page:
youtube.com/rihannafentyfan4life
I have some great videos on my channel that help me through stuff I'm going through...to an extent.

Imeem Page:
http://www.imeem.com/people/hjNYfbg/
Made some playlists that get me in a relaxing mood, to an extent.

Myspace Page:
myspace.com/bookwormautumn

Twitter Page:
twitter.com/bookwormautumn
Just cause...

(I'm not a fan anymore of Rihanna, to let you know.)