Boring week for me! :(

UGH!!

My week has been slow and very boring. Nothing is happening in my life, nothing exciting. No drama...that's good. lol. Well, yeah there is some.

At school, I have this friend named S (not going to use her name, just her initial.) Actually, she's not a friend, she's an associate. She has been upset with me for a bit now for no reason. side note: I've been selected to be apart in the peer mediation program at the school. Just me, my crush (kirk), and this other boy. We were told not to tell anyone about it. So when it was break time, kirk and his somewhat big mouth said something out loud enough for S to hear. I motioned him to shut up before she heard. She started to question us "what? what you guys talking about?" I told her nicely that sorry, I couldn't tell her. Her ass got mad at me, even though I told her I couldn't tell her! Oh well.
Soo...Thursday of this week, she still mad. Ok, I thought. I kept my distance because I'm not going to be kissing her ass to talk to me and I'm going to have to apologize for nothing. That's what she obviously thought, because she used Kirk as a little doll to make me jealous and mad. Another side note: One of my friends told her I liked Kirk, man. And another thing, she and Kirk don't even hang out like that. They aren't "buddies". kirk and I are, but not them together. So, Kirk is going to be a b**** and go along with her game and kissing her ass. Trader! I don't get it, why shes mad at me. Oh well, I guess. We'll see on next Tuesday how she going to act (because there is no school on Friday and next Monday.) I don't care, she can have Kirk as a friend, I don't have a problem with that, but the way he dogged me was wrong. I'm so mad at the both of them. UGH! I've lost my semi-obsession with him. :(

-A.P.

P.S. I talked to my youngest aunt today. She seems happy in Hawaii now. She just got a new job. That's great, I'm happy for her :)
P.P.S. I have new pics and I will post them soon :)

My Gramps is getting out of the hospital again!!...again...maybe...

Hey,

WOOWW! It's been a hell of a 2 weeks for me! Worrying, stressing, crying, flying, talking...lol. Now I think you guys are wondering ("what's she talking about "again?"). My gramps got out originally got out on Sunday, from the hospital that he had the surgery at. Then...on Monday, I guess he took a walk (doctor's order) and had a shortness of breath. Now, I wasn't there, but I was a person who was contacted to go see my gramps to make sure he was okay. The A-car (ambulance) gave him oxygen, and he was okay. Great. Then..they suggested he go back to the nearest hospital. He agreed. THANK GOD!! Why? Because they finally found the real problem on why my gramps has been having shortness of breath and other things...he has blood is low. It's not flowing well...BUT!
He is better now. After about 2 days in the hospital, I went to see him today. He is looking better, feeling better, talking better...Oh goodness gracious! I'm so happy. And the doctor checked in with him and said he should be released either Tomorrow or Friday. That's great news for me. So now, he'll stay at home and rest for the reminder of the "healing period" because even though my gramps was there, I despise hospitals . lol...

-A.P.

No good rest...

Wow..this week has went by so fast! I mean, It's Friday in 2 hours, over here. It's 10:00 something now...(I'm too lazy to look at the clock at the bottom, lol). I was so worried about My Gramps because I couldn't talk to him. But I went to see him today. I just wanted to cry, because he's in so much pain. But he is still crackin' jokes! He's laughing, smiling a bit, but I know he's going to be going through some emotional issues when he gets out. He is already experiencing some of those issues. With the scar down his stomach, the staying at home for a long period of time and not going to Bingo. He going to be in the hospital for a while, for his Kidneys are failing him @ the moment. There's not enough liquid going through his body. So he needs to get those up and running before everything else, so he can get home, soon. He doesn't like the people there lol. The hospital is nice, but I must admit, not the people. But whatever, as long as he getting care, which he is. He didn't want us to leave him, he wanted us to stay. I would, totally, but I have school and meetings to go to. I want to see him tomorrow, but I'll have to get there by bus.
I'm going to look into it....because I don't know my way around the hospital is....

Had to go to Tutoring (for math) as well, I dislike my tutor very much. She's annoying and very rude and insensitive. UGH! I need to get rid of her. But I need her for art credits (she owns a ceramic shop). DANG! :(

-A.P.

Mom's B-day...But thinking about my crush...

Today Is my mom's b-day!! Well, no...actually tomorrow (Sunday), It is. She turns thirty-eight, and she's pretty excited. Like a great, appreciative daughter, I bought her some flowers and cleaned the kitchen for her. lol. It was the least I could do. I would do a lot more, but I have a lot on my plate right now and just couldn't fit much in. I already told her that, but still...
Anyways, the whole freakin' day.. I was thinking about my crush from school. I'm trying to think of what to say to him...but I'm not sure. I'm getting encouragement from my mom and friends, but it's still not enough for me to push through and just tell him. I don't want to be to vulnerable or desperate in a way and tell him all of the feelings I'm feeling. I just want to tell him I enjoy his friendship and I hope to take it further, if he wants to, too.

Anyways, my grandpa's heart surgery is on Tuesday, the 10th. I hope it is successful. I'm taking that day off school to be there for support. I don't want anything to happen. But he is a tough cookie so I'm pretty sure he'll be okay. He'll be walking in no time. He is also getting his bad feet corrected (thank god!), finally. I spent the whole day at my grandma's. She went to get some new wig which looks great on her! It is a golden color and short-curled. She is ready to show out tomorrow , on Sunday. We plan to go out and celebrate my mom's b-day at some restaurant afterwards. Then see my great-grandma. But what is a shame is that neither of my aunts wished my mom happy birthday. I don't know, maybe tomorrow they'll call. they just need to get over their differences and their grudges and just wish someone a great day. Majority of the time, they can't even do that. That is a shame. Anyways, that is it for now. I plan to watch the Grammy's tomorrow as well. I hope M.I.A. doesn't go into labor on stage, but she is a trooper and has some guts to get on that stage on her due date. I love her so, no matter what happens lol. Performancers I want to see are: Adele, Coldplay, Estelle, The Four Tops (I love them soo much, too bad that Levi wasn't still around to live to perform), J-Hud (I'm glad she's strong enough for a comeback after what happened), Jonas Brothers (I love them, yes lol), BB King, Paul McCartney, Katy Perry, Smokey Robinson, Robin Thicke, T.I., Stevie Wonder, Radiohead, Rihanna, Allen Toussaint, and U2. And on Monday, I'm watching the BET Honors. I can't wait to see Whitney houston.

Other than that, nothing special.

-A.P.

I'm feeling good! :)

I feel great!!

Wanna know why?

I don't know, I just do. I really like my new school. It's awesome. I have friends. I have nice teachers. I have a crush (already!) . I really, really like him. He's so sweet, respectful, smart, funny, cute. Aw, I want him!! :) We have so much in common: music, movies, technology, books, etc...
The thing is: I don't know how to get over my shyness to tell him I like him! Ugh, I'm so bad with guys. It's even hard to talk to guys. But we have a natural connection, we clicked from the beginning. We have beautiful conversations. He has this cute accent (He's from South Carolina, I'm from Louisiana) and these beautiful eyes. I melt every time I see him.
I'm planning to see Friday the 13th when it comes out. So is he. Know what that means? Should I ask him? I want to so bad. But I can't. I'm too scared.

Gosh!!

We had a great conversation with the substitute teacher today (weird, right? We were suppose to pick on her, but we didn't. Haha just kidding.)
We were talking about life, movies, and technology. Wow. I'm such a nerd. But that's a great thing.

What should I do? I want to make a move on him. UGHHHH!!!!!!!!

A.P.