Father's Day and Mother's Day....are not my favorite holidays.

I really don't know how to start of this post. The title was easy but, the actual words, are hard.

I never really had an actual "parent". I mean, a parent who is....there.
Emotional, physical...
My dad has never been in my life a long period of time. In and out kind of thing.
My mom. She's there for me finacially. lol.
Not physically. Not emotionally.
My mom always put her "guy friends" and boyfriends before us, (me and my brother.)


It's hard, feeling like I have NO parents. Like both of my parents have passed and i'm here alone.
Here I am suffering from a tooth surgery...she's gone, picking up a guy (the guy I was ranting about in the previous posts)...bringing him over, when it was supposed to be us.

I don't know what to do or say. My word doesn't matter.